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[cw im stoned]

Newest video obsession is a couple of youtubers who put out a lot of videos in the "pushing the boundaries of a sim game" genre

After watching a bunch of videos in The Sims i am fascinated by thinking about how the "default" routines of the sims (no player interaction) are designed

There are a lot of videos setting up Sims in a situation and seeing how it plays out with no player intervention

but like, The Sims is a game designed to be played. If Sims could run their own lives autonomously, there would be nothing for the player to do but fuck up an AI-optimized life

which means if you use The Sims to run a "simulation"

they end up peeing themselves and dying of starvation like WAY more than they should

because they expect you to be telling them to eat and pee

...

*zones out thinking about how MY body is bad at telling me I need to eat and pee, and how learning how to manage those two things better has such weirdly deep Quality of Life cascade effects*

*zones to a deeper darker place thinking about how the way we imagine human experience affects how we treat other people*

It's always hard to be smacked in the face with ableism, but when it's so big and obvious in how it disregards SO many ways of experiencing life..... just makes me sad i guess.

It's nice to be more into video games lately though. There's a historical system imbalance there, and playing more games will be good for us. It's a lot of good decision-making practice! And "deciding on what level something matters" practice. A lot of our disharmony comes from mismatches on how much importance folks invest in certain things. There's no other way to do it besides continuing to increase communication skills. But like. It's annoying that our aggregate always feels like The Newest Most Evolved Person Fully Equipped With All Those Coping Techniques We Worked On A Few Months Ago

when a few months is, so long in other terms

when there's always SO much ahead of us

We aren't losing hope! It's just.....exhausting sometimes. We're allowed to be tired. We have to keep going, but that's not incompatible with being tired.

"It is not your responsibility to finish the work of perfecting the world, but you are not free to desist from it either." --Rabbi Tarfon, Pirke Avot 2:21